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(((hug))
Just deal with this Best you can Uzzi
Only You know how hard things where

Please dont look back its not the direction your going xxx

Only you lived it and nobody can tell you how to deal with it.You must settle on a state of mind that gives you the most peace.

For my part, I have settled on accepting that I hated my own mother, always did and never had a reason not to..

(((((hugs))))) Uzzi. Oh and she has given many of us some super holidays (not quite the cruises she loved but wonderful opportunities for us.

<3 <3

Well it is 4 years now since mother dear did her favours and made me an orphan- I would like to think I have shed more tears about her before her death but I am not sure. I am amazed at the tears she has caused in the last 4 yrs .
I will admit as a child a didn´t like my mother, as an adult well
but Mum had dementia, very early on when she was having a go at me somebody said it´s the dementia ..my reply was don´t worry I grew up with this.
but it was dementia . She didn´t have the right to do what she she did she didnýt have the right to to have me at her bedside in my home when when she died. but I was there and she was in my home, The home she bought me and made sure was mine on the last night we talked,

I do not regret Mums death she hated the slow dementia and she knew
I do not regret taking her into my home, she was happy
I do not even regret some of the arguments we had before I knew because the honesty was there

I do regret that circumstances stopped us being friends lolol as if mother would have a female friend even worse her daughter
:-S

It took me many years to understand I wasn´t at fault, it took her death but understand more , even now she left me to carry some of the blame with out telling me why

I love my Mother Dear especially now