General Chat

Carole, the time I did that with an egg it exploded and there was dry yolk all over the ceiling!! So you were lucky, burnt egg shell smells horrible. I hope the medication helps you but I am sure, from what you say, it is down to stress over your Dad.

Claire, what a frightening experience for you, I am so pleased that your lad was found safe and well.

Gail, words as always fail me with regards to your brother who, I assume, is giving you grief again. You make sure you take time to grieve over your Dad, but on no account give in to your bully brother.

Colin, if you have bipolar you do very well without medication. I have a friend who suffers from Bipolar and she too decided to give up her medication and fight it on her own. So far she has succeeded so hope you can continue to stay off it.

Liz, your OH is a real pain isn't he? Sorry he managed to spoil your birthday weekend what a selfish person he is.

Ann
Glos

Hi Colin I had been doing very well up until Dad having to go into hospital. Before I visited them every Sunday for a couple of hours. Now I have to see much more of them!! I can't cope with it very well. Did just manage to hold back the tears in the Dr's.

Been to Dr's just got home with more citalopram. I have to go back in three weeks if I don't have to go before then. Going for a lie down I'm bushed

I put an egg on to boil this morning for my pack up found the kitchen steamed up after my shower and the egg dry!! I'm being very forgetfull Had been on about 50 mins

Hello all, I have been reading but not posting. Yes, Clairjo, it has been quiet but is certainly picking up now.
Hope you got to do something nice for your birthday, Liz. I always try to take GF- her birthday, mother's brthday and anniversary of latter's death fall close together.
Carole, I am concerned. Hope you saw the Dr. I honestly don't know if you should be back on the tablets, but they take a couple of weeks to kick in and so you might have another couple of weeks of feeling awful. I think you are right, though. It sounds like the worry of your dad is getting to you. The panic attack in the early hours of the morning is a pretty good indication that there is something going on behind it.
It is a while since I used my A-Ds, but used to delay using them until I was really in a bad way (I am supposed to have bipolar, and also take valproate).
Gail, it was good to see you on here. I wondered whether the chooks had got to you. Your brother won't let you grieve? Blow him; you grieve. It's normal and healthy (and with 2 parents and one sister dying young in the 1970s and a close uncle in the 1990s I can speak from experience).
Deanna, always lovely to read your posts. Lady Rach, yours too. Anyone I know that I have missed?-- Sorry.

Carole, hope you are feeling a little better today. How did you go at the doctors?

Liz, do not ever ask me to walk a mile in your shoes, I just will not do it. Nor will I swap my OH.

Sorry have been a bit quite the past few days. My dad passed away this time last year. Think the worst of it is Brother will not let me grieve. I really need to give myself a good shake. Trouble starts when I put my foot down, and will not be walked over. Sometimes, I think it would be better to just give in.

And, Sharron, before you start, I am not giving in, just feel it would make life easier at times.

Love and hugs

Gail

Carole, please phone the docs, tell them it is an emergency, it is.
C'mon, phone them now I will pm you later
Claire xxx

Claire so pleased you found him safe. I remember my son how he would dissapear so quickly and as he couldn't talk the panic we felt that he couldn't tell anyone his name or where he was from. Pleased you had a lie in xx

I slept about four hours on and off last night. I phoned my supervisor this morning to ask her to drive today as I didn't want the responsibility. She said do you want to go? So I said not really. So I'm off today. Will try to get in at the Drs. I lie tossing and turning feeling like I am suffercating. I try to relax thinking of something nice, but just feel this overwhelming panic. If I don't go mad I'll have a heart attack. I'm sure it's all stress with Dad being in hospitlal. Oh said I don't need to go back on the tablets it's only cos Dad is poorly. Yes thats right but I cannot cope.

Edit ,, Doctors at 2:40

Hope you are all feeling you are coping!! Love to all xxx

Hello all
It's quiet on here is everyone ok?
We had a terrific start to the summer hols yesterday when little boy went missing, he had managed to unlock the front door. A frantic search ensued and lots of neightbours rallied round thankfully we found him a good distance away about 15 mins later a short distance from the main road. Police were not the best said it would take 10 mins to get there although they did search the area and joined us when we found him. I never ever want to have to go through that again but just thank God he is ok . He must have worn himself out though slept through till 6.00am this morning, a lovely lie in for Mummy!! Off to do breakfast now
Sending love to all
Claire xxx

Liz I feel for you, xx

Deanna thanks for message xx

Rach nice to see you here but hope you feel happier soon xx

I am going to work today. Don't feel like it. I'm shaking and didn't sleep well. Had weetabix but nearly gagged on it this morning. I know I have to eat! Long journey today (Long Sutton) big shop too we have to go back tomorrow. I'm worried about when Dad goes home and having to listen to mum in the mean time! Visiting yesterday was very busy and I couldn't concentrate. The noise was sending me light headed. I really need to go back on citalopram, and know I must see my Dr. bye for now xxx
Also my oh's friends funeral tomorrow, so kind of hope I get given the day off to go with him.

I am really fed up as o.h. didn't come and wake me till way after midday and just plonked a cup of tea down, and I ended up going back to sleep. I was so tired and tense after last night's shenanigans with him, so didn't get to the Country festival or a meal out, in fact, he hadn't bought much when he went to the shop, just got a cooked chicken and stuff for his pack up and no spuds, so I decided why should I try to put together a meal, let him do it. Ended up with him not having dinner and me having poached eggs and him complaining it was all my fault........ I just sat in frosty silence most of the time and watched some stuff I had recorded on dvd.
Nice end to my birthday weekend I don't think, wait till he wants a nice birthday next year, I shan't be making an effort which I usually do. He always takes time off for his birthday and several years has expected me to arrange somewhere away for a few days which I have done, altho last year he decided just to stay here and go out for the day. Even so I made an effort and got a cake and made sure he spent some time with his son on the lunchtime, before his son went off to his home 40 miles away.

He did put the photos he took on the computer so I have some lovely ones of myself with my son, none with the moron tho lol

Will catch up with everyone soon, feel a bit deflated now and hungry too lol better find something nice to eat, now he is asleep.

love
Lizxx

Carole, you sound like my Tony.... he worries about us as you do about your dad.
It is wonderful to be loved like that, but it worries me that he worries so much about his dad and me.
I'm sure your lovely dad feels the same about you, but it will not stop you worrying, I'm sure.
And just like you... he picked his dad up every day that I was in hospital, took him to his house, made him dinner, and then brought him to the hospital to see me.
Nice to be loved, but hard on the kids who love.
SO... just you relax darling, your dad would not want you stressing yourself out this way.
Yes, it was so lovely what Mary did for me.... aren't people lovely sometimes?
AND... nice to hear that Coco is back to normal now..... night in with 'mummy'... ha ha ha

Liz, did you enjoy your birthday then?
Did you have any nice pressies?
What is the book you are reading just now?
I too am looking for a nice summery dressing gown, difficult to get a nice one in my size.... HUGE!!
I do have one which Karen bought me one Christmas, but it does not sit right on my shoulders.... or as I used to say when I was a child... my soldiers!
So I had a 'soldier bag'... ;-0)

I tidied up one of the book shelves today and packed a few books, videos and things for the heart foundation.
Not an awful lot as I did not have the time, and books are very heavy for someone to pick up without notice.
If they SAID when they were coming and gave me a week.... I could put out so much for them.

Nice to hear from you Rach... I don't come on enough to see everyone daily as I did before, but I still think of you all.... all the time.
Allan has to listen to all my stories about you all, and poor man doesn't know who the h*** any of you are... ;-0)

Tony and Karen phoned again last night and the camera's are working on both sides now, so I can see them.
I just giggle like a child... how lucky are we in this world today?
They were sitting outside on a roof veranda I believe, having their supper.You must all think I am a bit NUTS, which I am of course, but I can't help it folks.... I love that lad, and I make no apologies... ha ha ha

So I'm off now to watch a cowboy film with Allan, he loves his cowboys. A relic from his childhood.
Mine is the Hollywood musicals, and last week.... CALL ME MADAM, was on , and I loved it... again!

See you again later perhaps.
Look after yourselves EVERYONE, and have a nice Sunday afternoon.
Soon be coffee time, lovely. What a hedonistic life I lead, ah well, I am not complaining. ;-0)

Lots of love,
Deanna XXXXX

Hi all, and thanks to everyone for the birthday greetings, and cards etc, I will try and thank everyone later but am very tired tonight. I did go out with my son and o.h. but as per usual, I ended up having to do most of the driving, don't ask, and we were very late getting out due to my lad having to work cos his boss messed up the time he had booked off. He came round very late in the afternoon with flowers and a couple of books, he is good at choosing books for me to read, and we went to a shop out in the country that I wanted to visit to try and get a summery dressing gown, can't find one I like anywhere and that shop was no exception. It is to be a present when I find one I like. Went on to a villlage fete a few miles further out and had a good time, met up with some old friends of son and myself, and stuffed ourselves with burgers and such and of course, coming back couldn't decide where to eat as we weren't very hungry and son needed to get back to his place by 10pm (the fete started at 6pm on through the evening) I drove as o.h. mislaid his specs before we went out, oh yeah lol, so wasn't happy driving as the evening became darker. We ended up in a flippin' McDonalds same as when we took my son out for his birthday the other week, o.h. has promised to take me out for a meal today but I am so tired and fed up with him, I don't care if we go or not, as it will mean him drinking so I have to drive again.

I got such a lot of lovely cards from my friends here and old friends and relatives, so was very lucky and my lad brought me cerise gerberas and pinks which look great, he is so hard up at the mo but made a big effort to get things I like, bless him.

Anyway must get off here and get some sleep, so will catch you all Sunday evening I hope and hope you have a good day.

Deanna, I am half way through a good book at the mo but am looking forward to starting the ones my lad got me. Our Mary is such a star eh, so thoughtful and generous, I hope things look up for her and the family now and things go well with the meeting of the dogs and children.

love to all
thanks again for your kind wishes

Lizxxxxx

Hi all I have had quiet a nice day with Al today (we don't get many) I hope you have all had a good day
((hugs)) to Carole I hope you are feeling a little better today hunni
Rachxxxx

Deanna I half suspect my illness this week was part stress with my Dad being in hospital. After a week away from it all ( Mum and Dad) I feel better. But tomorrow I will pick mum up and go to visit Dad with her. I know I'll be stressed again. I phoned her tonight and got palpatations! So I know how you feel how long will this well being last?

How nice of Mary to think of you when she was so busy getting ready for the holiday. ( Hope they all get on well with the dogs)
I'm looking forward to seeing those dogs!

Oh has arranged a school reunion, it is taking place tonight so I'm alone, just Coco with me. We just had a walk and didn't see any cats!

Going to watch the Vulcan on military channel

Hi everyone, hope you all had a nice day.
I had a very good day.
I finished my book last night and sat and chose a new one for myself this morning, while I was having breakfast.
I chose a Daphne du Maurier book (the glass blowers... I believe it was called) from a small collection of books which Tony bought me.
Then I went into the bathroom for a wash.... and Allan shouted to me that there was a parcel for me.
When I came out the parcel was from MaxiMary.
A lovely card wishing me well, and 4 books to 'help me relax'....
How nice was that?
She has so many problems, and is hardly noted for her affluence, and yet she sent me a present.
What a darling woman she is.
So now I have changed my mind, and am reading a mystery from Mary.... thank you Mary.
THEN.... I find out that two of my lovely pals from here have a birthday today, Liz and Joyce, and I did not even send them a card.
I did not know, or I would have sent a card.
Joyce sends cards for all reasons, and I could not even send her one for her birthday.... I really am sorry love.
Hope you had a great day.

Then Tony and Karen just phoned me, and as I can now see them on the screen is is so exciting.
They are having a nice time, and Tony's Egyptian is coming on well..... like I would be able to tell! ha ha ha
So all in all, between the prozac and the camera on the computer, I am feeling so good just now.
BUT.... do any of you ever feel..... How long will this last?
I am dreadful, I have too much 'luggage' NOT to think like that.
I know, I'm and eedjit, but there you are, that is one of my crosses I have to bare (is that the right bare?) ;-0)
Anyway, good night to you all and I hope we all have a good night sleep, and no problems.
Lots of love,
Deanna XXXXXX

Am glad I'm not the only one confused Carole.....

Happy birthday to Liz and Joyce, hope you both have a lovely day.

Thinking of all of you who are in pain, mentally or physically, or both.

Eileen x

Mummo thats great news. I'm so pleased for you both xx

Rach keep up the fighting spirit xxx

CarolB I can't imagine how hard life is for you but it's good to see you again xx Love to you and your oh

Clairejo have you got a rest this week end? xx

Eileen thinking of you and and sharing your confusion with Betty Lily Thistldown !!! Take care xx

Colin hope you are doing okay xx

Caz How do you feel in your new home now? Do you like it? Any news about the trees at your old home? Pleased you are having fun doing your friends tree. Well done spotting the mistake and getting it put right xx

Deanna hope you and your family are well xx Also that the prozac helps you

Gail thanks for your message. Did you get any nice photos of your grandson ? xx

Hazel hope you are feeling better now xx

Mary hope the family love the dogs, and you all get along just fine have a great holliday xx

Thinking of Kathy and hoping she and her son are doing ok xxx

I'm a little better but not 100% I feel dizzy but I'll live. We had some sad news last night, my daughter shouted up to me in bed. She had just got a text message from one of her best friends who's mother had been found to have a brain tomour, we were shocked, and all three of us sat down stairs for a while, the girls crying together!! Hard to sleep last night


Wishing Liz and Dutch a very Happy Birthday today hope you both have a lovely day with your families xxx

Hi all, I am so sorry I am not being very supportive to my friends at the mo, can't keep all the balls in the air, I am so tired. I must get to bed in a bit, as I have to get up and ready to go out this afternoon with my son and o.h.
I do think about you all but just can't get round to answering everyone's post for the mo


much love to all you lovely folk, know I am with you in spirit lol, just the old bod lets me down and the brain too lol

Lizxxxxxx

Seems so long ago when I posted on here, where does the time go? I am still in dreamland so much happened, been a bad week and I thought I was getting stronger but life keeps kicking us in the teeth. I try to cover up and try to laugh but it isn't me anymore. Still I musnt moan there are ones worse of than me and in real pain so I send you all my love and thoughts
Hugs
xxxx
CarolB

Hi everyone not been about for a while I have been on a serious rollercoaster and I feel I am just getting myself back together and it has strained our relationship but we are strong enough to get through it.
I hope you are all ok and I send lots of (((hugs))) out to all of you
Rachxxxxx

that IS good news Mummo, best wishes to him, hope he continues to make good progress.

Ann
Glos