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Would you flippin Chritmas Eve it?
Counsellor has just phoned and said she can't see me today now, so the earliest I could get was this Thursday but at 1pm and as many of you know, I don't do mornings, will be a real stressful experience to get there then, and was looking forward to talking with her today. Also she told me the cognitive behaviour therapy she was thinking about, is expensive but did suggest I talk to my doctors about them funding it, which should have been done years ago as far as I am concerned. Don't they realise it is my life slipping away with this ocd taking the quality of life away?
P'd off now.
Lizx

Hi all, glad I am seeing counsellor today, after a longish break due to her hols and mine.
Back to the old routine after my holiday - can't get myself motivated to do anything much, am just going week by week, currently looking forward to next Saturday's Norwich meet. Nearly the longest day and then I start going downhill with a vengeance, don't know why, except I am sure it is linked with trying to move on with my house when my son was younger, and school hols when I wasn't working yet never got things done. Also my son and I have our birthdays in July and that just reminds me how the years are rolling by, can you see how melancholy I am getting. It is silly when I have a lot to be thankful for but my head doesn't see that. The holiday was pleasant but not long enough and except when I met up with some people off the boards, I only really had his company so was as bad as being here. He didn't get what I meant about having 'me' time, said it wasn't right we didn't do things together.
I felt I was searching for something all the time and not finding it but couldn't say what it was, if that makes any sense. I was very bored a lot of the time tho.
Living with o.h. is pulling me down too, we have nothing in common, I was happier when he was away this weekend, but the time alone wasn't long enough. Also another year going by and no closer to sorting out my life and moving out.
This week he is on early shift so I have to cook everynight for him and put up with his attitude all week as well, roll on Saturday and the meet, and then next week when he is on late shift so I don't have to spend much time with him.
Sorry to be a misery guts, when so many of you have much bigger problems and worries.
Lots of love to you alll and strength to get thru whatever life chucks at you.
Lizxx

morning everyone sorry i carnt mention you all by name today as my mind is elsewhere just like to say thank you all for your wishes for today and hubbys hospital visit for pre opp apiontment ,this time next week he will be in theatre as you can gather im on count down ,gettin myself prepared ,sons girlfriend is cooking tea for us tonight so i dont have to do it when i get back bless her well im of now ill update when we get back tonight hugs to all xxxxx elaine xxx

Oh well here we go again! Monday morning poohs!!
Not traveling too far today so hope it will not be too bad. Again didn't sleep very well so tired this morning, pleased I'm not driving.

Gail....what a lovely surprise to see you this morning.
Your dad is in good hands. Now you go be near your daughter and don't worry. Let us know when baby is here xxx

Christine are you another night bird like Liz?

Thinking of Elaine and her dear husband. You will both soon be home xxx

Have a good day all xxx

Carol thank you for your PM and thoughts and prayers. I also hope your mum and dad are doing well now that your dad is home.

My dad is not much better, but hanging in there, in hospital. I am flying to my daughters at the weekend and will be away for a few weeks, baby is due at the end of the month. Dad was not happy when I told him I was going away, I know he needs me as well and have been very torn. But I have put off leaving for the past two weeks and cannot leave it any longer.

If I can get my laptop connected while away I will let you know when the baby arrives.

Hugs to all of you and try to keep well.

Gail

PS Carol I also enjoy your funny E-mails

Dear Carole , and all
House is lovely and quiet ,so come on here as i do most nights..My day not been too good today,Just wanted a little time on my own but thats hard here.
I suppose i better go to bed,
Goodnight everyone sleep tight,
Carole hope you have a goodnight sleep,I will think of you in the morning.
Love Christine xxxx

Big welcome to Kay.

Elaine sending you love and strength to help you both through xxx

Deanna hope you had a lovely weekend xx

Ann how are you?x

Paula hope you had a good weekend xx

Joyce we miss you how are you? xx

Caz did you have any visitors for fathers day? xx
Hows the aches and pains? xx

Wendy how are you? xx

Jules thinking of you xx

Kathy is J home? xx hope you are both okay x

Sue how are you? xx

Eileen thinking of you xx

Carolina are things okay ? xx

Gail down there praying for you and your family xx

Gill sending you hugs ((xx))xx

Ben keep up the hard work and put your ocd to good use xx

Liz have you got all your washing done and put away? xx

Ann GG haven't seen you on here for an age xx

Mary love to you and yours xx

White nancy you are special so don't think you are not worth our listening to xx

Malc hope things are going good for you xx

Dave also thinking of you xx

Irene haven't seen you on here for ages but often wonder how you are xx

Christine missed you today! xx

Betty, how are things going over there ? xxx

Sharron how is it going at your house? xx

Well time to go to bed. Bet I'll lay awake most of the night worried about poohing in the morning when leaving for work! Sunday nights are mostly the worst!
xx

Kay, Citalopram user now for 10 years!
xx

My sister also suffers from severe depression and misuses alcohol. My mum very rarely ring to see how i am she ring me when she cant get hold of my sisters and even calls me by my sister name.

I have tired to help my sister on numerous occasion but have got to the point now that i dread talking to her and spend my time wondering what her next crisis will be

thank you for all your kind words of support. let me explain a bit about myself which will help put things into context. I am 40 i grew up with a strange sense of being different but never understanding why i can remember looking through the family papers to see if i could find evidence that i was adopted. my mum left my dad in 1978 so i grew up in an all female household which was unusual for the time. desperate to find the loving family i never had at 17 i met my 1st husband (who in hindsight turned out to be very domineering) i had 2 children in 93 & 95 and by the age of 3 my son had been diagnosed with learning disabilities. This turned out to be a turning point for me as i suddenly realised that i had the same problems Dypsraxia ) as my son this spelled the bigin of the end for my marriage my husband couldn't cope with the fact that his son & heir was not perfect and too boot his wife was going round telling everyone she had a problem too! he started becoming obsessed with my friends he did the big confession on 1 who rejected him 2nd he left me for the week before xmas when that didnt work out i took it him back but before long he started hitting on friend number 3 (he is now married to her). I took the kids and went to stay with my sister 150 miles away and eventually got my own place nearby.
by the time i left my 1st hubby what little self confidence and belief was in tatters. That was just over 4 years ago and since then my life has moved on in so many positive ways i met and married a fanatic guy who is everything i always wanted in a partner and I am just about to finish a college course, but despite all the good things going on in my life i cannot get rid of all those fears and anxieties that have plagued me for so many years

hi elaine

I shall keep you and hubby in my prayers, I know you will get through all this difficult time - there are a lot of people here sending you positive thoughts and prayers.

((((((((((big hugs for you)))))))))))))))))

Gill

Elaine we are all here for you, I'm sending some sunshine your way,
hugs and love
Mary

deanna ,carole and everyone thank you ,im having a bad day today as im in a state of panic/anx and got the shakes and body feels like its running away,deep breaths ,am panicing over travling tomoz as i just dont do it and then thinking this time next sunday hubby will be in hospital please god help me through it hugs to everyone xxxelaine

Have a lovely day all of you.

Fathers day so there may be children of all ages hanging around all day.... ermmm.... helping!! ;-0)

Mine has not arrived yet, but he is on his way.

Elaine, I think of you and your lovely husband and awful lot.
Please don't think you are alone... we are all here for you.

Deanna XX

Morning all

I hope you all enjoy your day

((((((((((hugs to all))))))))))))))

I am still suffering the dreadful sick headaches.

Take care

Gill

Elaine we are all with you both. Fingers, toes, legs arms all crossed for you. It's a big thing and no wonder you are worried but stay strong, you will be needed to pull you both through this. You will come through....xxx

love to you all xx

evening everyone ,just poped on before i try to get some sleep am so tired carnt keep eyes open but i no im gona be waking up every hour ,well we now on count down 1 day left before pree opp apiontment and 8 days till opp gtting realy nervious about it all so im here to drive you all mad again ,sorry ,gona keep a writen log of how i feel and whats happening councelars surgestion she said if i put my feeling down on papper it might help me ,worth a go anyway night all you all take care xxelaine xx

HI Deanna,---as long as it means they're happy lol
strange day here mostly overcast and cold with odd patches of breakthrough sunshine.Still ,got bedding out to dry so just so long as we dont get more rain till later. xx

Hi Paula.... where is everyone today?

A tiny spark of sunshine and they all leave us, and go into their gardens!! ;-0)

Deanna XX

love and((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))
to everyone
Paula xxx