General Chat

Oh Vicky, I have just seen your post, am about to reply to your last mail. x
Deanna, Mary and anyone else I normally mail with/pm, x too.

Good morning all,

Sorry that I am not around lately, can’t seem to summon up the energy.Makes me feel guilty every day, but…
Maybe when I sstart back on the thyroid meds, I will feel a lot better in a month or so.Didn’t want to start taking them again some months ago when the gp said I should, wanted to see if this prob. would go away by itself.. Have been out of sorts for quite some time, both mentally and physically, feeling rather sorry for myself, mea culpa, until I read Izzy’s thread about her son’s horrific injuries…something like that tends to put everything into perspective, doesn’t it? She and Ashe are incredibly brave, it makes me feel ashamed.
My handicapped daughter who lives in Brittany with her husband and 3 of their children & g.children, turned up unexpectedly on wednesday, together with 2 of their gorgeous g.children.My ex was due at 10 am, (friendly visit) so when the door bell rang at 9.45, I thought he was a bit early!! Bless them, they had been in north Wales with the girls, but received a phone call from a sister of my s.i.l about his mum, who lives about 30 mins. Car ride from me.She was diagnosed with thyroid cancer about 10 years ago, since then, has half a lung removed, as it had spread, now she has a brain tumour…she is incredibly brave and strong, doesn’t complain, I take my hat off to her.Her mum died of thyroid cancer when she was in her early 40’s…both of them were prisoners in Japanese camps when they lived in Indonesia…she never spoke about that time until about 8 years ago…and then not much. Poor s.i.l and poor mum…it was lovely to see daughter though, she is another one that never complains, even though she is in constant pain, it is horrible to see her struggle to move around, and not say anything.She doesn’t want sympathy, says it works in a negative way…was glad that she got to see her dad as well as me.Those little girls are truly gorgeous, as I said already, they played quietly all the time, chattering away in French, so cute.They can speak and understand a bit of English though, after being in Wales for a month with my eldest g.child and her family , plus gran and g.dad….children pick a language so quickly, don’t they?

We had a terrible storm a couple of weeks ago, it caused such havoc.In a small village near to us, the trail of destruction was unbelieveable.The burgermaster had to go see how bad the damage was, it said it was a mini tornado….have never seen anything like it.In a place further away from us, caravans on a small camping place, were sucked up and deposited in a lake, killing one woman and injuring others.
I went to the small village with the daughter who went to France with me for a g.daughter’s wedding in April, to pick blueberries with her and son Zachaar, at a blueberry farm, all along the canals were enormous uprooted trees, parts of the canal were completely clogged, horrible sight.The only good thing to come out of this was, the whole village banded together to clear the roads, because there was no way in or out of it for days…only police heli’s could reach the population.Miraculously, no one was hurt!

Was still awake last night when I felt a slight sting on my forehead, it was a gnat settling down for a snack…first one to do this so far!! Bah, there will be a lot of them soon, wasps too.I will be checking the bedroom every evening from now on.Lol

Well, this turned out far longer than planned.Will try keep up with things…

To all of you with pain in mind and/or body, I wish you all ‘courage’and peace of mind.

Eileen

Hi everyone,
Yes Ann I had a wonderful day out with the family. Sorry to see them go again.
We do see them all at different times, but never all together, now THAT would be a treat.
I am indeed well again, if I am ever truly well, just like the rest of you.
We can't moan though can we, we still have a life and as bad as some moments are... life is good.

Vicky, I did not realise that you were in need of a hug or two..... consider yourself squeezed with affection.
I Still have not managed to sort through my e-mails, but will get around to answering you at some point.
I collected 2 pages of e-mails while I was ill, so it will take time.
I will however get to you first I think. Chin up love.XX

Mary, you do have a time of it don't you? Your daughter and her children are so so lucky to have you.
I know.... I can hear you from here saying.... *I am lucky to have them too*, but you know what I mean.
SLEEP? Mary, I could give 'sleeping lessons'.
Allan has never been a good sleeper and used to get quietly angry with me when we were younger.
There was he, lying beside my 'night time dead body' while he lay there DESPARATE for sleep!

Ah well, I had better go and see to my e-mails, before my son comes back and drags me off the pooter by my hair!
AND, yes, I am joking. I am a well loved woman, and could only joke around like that ... because I am.

Be good to yourselves everyone, and I will get back into a routine again soon. I hope.
Love and hugs to all.
Deanna XXXX

Where is everyone, no postings for 2 days, or is it 3 for some of you?
I am doing a lot of clearing, for some reason feeling vulnerable, which wasn't helped by witnessing a car/truck accident yesterday, nobody killed but it's a wonder, not much left of the smaller car which had 4 young ladies, the truck ended up with front end round a pole. We were delayed quite a while, by the time I got home I was feeling quite sick.
My son and his g/f Joanne seem to be working their way through their issues, and now the poor girl has to have urgent surgery in 2 weeks (I cannot imagine how she could get a surgical date for neurosurgery in 2 weeks, that's more likely to be at least 3 months). She has to have a deep nerve 'released' in her elbow, which they hope will greatly reduce or eliminate her chronic arm pain. They don't hold out much hope for improved hand function, but if she has less pain, her life will be easier. This is all because someone spilled some vegetable oil at work and didn't wipe it up - 4 years ago (she was a brilliant pastry chef). Her worker at the workers compensation office has suddenly taken a great interest in helping her (a bit late to my way of thinking) - arranged this re-assessment by a hand specialist, a physio and an OT, to see if they could help her. She got todays hand clinic appt in less than a week, and now surgery in 2 weeks. Someone somewhere is finally advocating for her, poor girl. No wonder she's irritable at times!!
My 3 granddaughters are away this week at camp, and apparently having a wonderful time. Sir Gareth again distinguished himeself yesterday as he is at a day camp this week. yesterday they took him out in canoe, and he discovered that if he leaned over the side, the canoe would tip and he could swim!! So 3 times the poor counsellor had to dive in after him and chase him in the water to get him to turn round!! Today she told him that if he tipped the canoe today there would be no more boat rides. The canoe remained upright and they toured the canal for 45 minutes!! Both days he has come home exhausted!!
I've been catching up on my sleep this week with less chaos in the house. Didn't know one could sleep so much!!
back to work now - to fill some more bags and find my bed underneath it all.
'night all,
Mary

Vicky, sorry you are feeling like that, hope things look up for you soon.(((hugs))) for you and for Carole too

I have been feeling overwhelmed with life lately altho my counsellor is good and lets me spill everything out.
Had a nice birthday, best parts as usual were the lovely cards I received (don't worry Carole, I know you are busy) and the birthday thread and spending time with my son, o.h. tried to be ok and did get me some nice pressies, nice card and got me a huge chocolate cake which he iced with my name but tired himself out doing things he didn't need to do yesterday so altho we went out (to the local coast), as per usual I had to drive home as he had forgotten some medication so his diabetes made him feel rough, meant we couldn't go and eat out,or have a drink, ended up with pizza from my fav. place where all the Turkish lads sang Happy Birthday to me lol and then I had to drive my son home as the buses weren't running from here.
Oh well, another year older, same old, same old and o.h. did get me a triple Enrique Iglesias cd set (not sure where the idea came from for that but I do like E I - rather a lot - so will enjoy playing the cds)
Must get to bed,
take care all,
Lizxx

Hope you are all ok.
Just feeling so down these days, and not sleeping and staying in bed til late afternoon.
Feel nobody wants to know me, and very isolated from my family.
Feel I just want to walk out the door and keep going, but know I ain't got the energy for that.

Just need a few huggles please.

Know I'm lucky compared with some people, but don't always feel like that.

Happy birthday to Liz and Joyce (Dutch). Sorry I didn't get cards sent to you both. I have been so busy I am loosing the plot. I have been forgetting my tablets and it is showing, but will make an effort to make sure I take them. The counceling I am still at is about half way through. I hate it. I'd like to tell her I'm not going amymore.


Sorry Sharron I put you were no longer a member, another thing I got confused.
Carolina hi xx

Mum is having a lot of pain in her thigh so finding it difficult to look after Dad. It's a real worry.Will be visiting later when I have got her shopping done. Then have to look at getting her a blind made for the kitchen. Hope I can remember how my sewing machine works it's so long since it came out.
Love to all xxx

Hello Carolina, how lovely to see you.

just to let you all know i still look in and that i think about you all

love and hugs always carolina x x

just got another huge bocquet of red and yellow roses of my M.I.L for our anniversay on monday,looks like flower shop LOL
Dutchxx

Nothing arrived yet Joyce, still it is three weeks yet so plenty of time.

Hello All have just got ahuge bouquet of flowers was,nt expecting them ,my cousin in Cornwall sent them to me i had already got another one from my school friend in Cornwall to,dont no were im going to put all the flowers as we get them for our wedding Anniversary on monday,i was abit cross with the post i ask Dannis boyfriend if he would post the cards in Sheffield for me ,but nobody has got them Ann i sent birthday card to you even though its way off so i would,nt forget but i dont think you will have got it as the other three people did,nt
Anyway i wish you all better days and nice weekend its forecast rain tomorrow i hope not as were all sitting outside,take care all
Dutchxx

Good to see you all chatting on here again. caz, no you haven't let the thread down, we all know how much pain you are in and appreciate it when you manage to come on here.

Deanna, glad to see you are feeling better again and hope you enjoy your meal out. We have daughter and son in law here this weekend so he will likely be cooking for us tonight.

JP Joyce, yes we all drift in and out as the mood takes us, that is what is good about this thread,it is good when we find a 'full house' though.

Mary, hopefully with the girls away you will be able to relax a bit. I hope a solution can be found for garet but good news that he is bonding well with his dog.

Sharron, good to see you, I was hoping you had not left, I love the stories about your dad.

Good morning all.
I am so sorry , but I do not have the time to sit around 'talking dirty' with you lot..... as much as I love yah all.
Get your clothes on Caz & Sharron, and behave yourselves... always letting the GR reputation down , aren't yah?

I have not had the time to read anything yet, but will do later.
Feeling much better and will be going out for a meal later with the family. So lovely when we can get together... still a couple missing... but getting everyone together at one place at one time is not easy is it?

Speak again soon.
AND... Thank you Joyce & Jan for the lovely get well card, it arrived this morning.
You put me to shame Joyce, you never forget a card do you?

And the other Joyce.... Helloooo Speak later. Lots of love.

Bye all,
Deanna XXXX

I'll write later but I just have to answer that Sharron one. At least I was in my house missus, not gassing to the neighbours showing a big full moon to the camera. Didn't we have some laughs over that though, lol.

Caz xx

Well put JP !!
I know personally the winter is a difficult season,, this time of year am usually fairly stable. (as much as possible LOL).
Right now I am fighting another downer, as gareth has distinguished himeself by having his autism therapy terminated, due to his behaviours, aggression and extreme agitation. Entire therapy sessions recently have been spent on controlling outbursts rather than providing any therapy.
I just feel heartbroken over him. He developed some nasty side effects from the one drug and the Dr has stopped it, in the hope it will self-correct, not remain permanent. The aggression increased further so the second medication was stopped as of yesterday. Now we have a highly agitated child who is on a "drug holiday". I am panicking as to what this will mean if he doesn't settle, I have been kicked and pushed and hit multiple times recently, not a pleasant way to 'bond' with my grandson. The only good thing is that he has lost 11 pounds in a month, is now almost average for his age. The weight loss was much needed, but today I see he is eating substantially more than yesterday!!
My daughter's car died this week, the same day I made the final payment on mine!! One vehicle is inadequate for this household!! Someone send us a bus, 7 people and 2 huge dogs more than fill my van!!
Speaking of the dogs, Gareth has really bonded well with Dudley, he has become his 'brother' and sleeping bunkmate!! Sarah is less receptive but improving slowly.
I want some ice cream, just drooling at the thought, MiniMary and I went blueberry-picking a few days ago and brought home 18 pounds of fresh berries, one of the 3 baskets was eaten before we could freeze them, the rest will be used for baking, But they would be SO delicious with some lovely ice cream!! perhaps jam will be made too - if the temperature cools a bit. It is so wretched humid at present that one feels quite weak. can't take a shower right now as little Sir Gareth pushed the shower door so hard that it came off it's moorings, broke something off the bottom, and cannot go back up, so baths it is. And I need a lift to extricate me from seated position!!
We have the most gorgeous sunset tonight, large red area with a huge number of pale pink clouds , travelling wisps in the sky. Should be a better day tomorrow, we are sick of rain!! My front window leaked during the night, mercifully I was asleep in the lounge, as everyone is sleeping in my flat as it's too hot upstairs. The front window was pouring water, the paint lifted on the window sill, and the floor is much cleaner. Methinks we need someone (which will NOT be me) to climb up to the small roof over the front porch and reseal with new caulking where the roof meets the house.
The 3 girls are due to go to camp for a week on Sunday, hopefully it will be quiet with just Gareth. Even Sarah is going, and will have 2 counsellors assigned to her, 24/7. As it's so organised and a tight routine, sarah managed well last year and miniMary will be in her cabin so she has built-in support.

Sorry to ramble, my brain has been feeling overwhelmed recently, with very little quiet time. they return to school in 6 weeks, forgive me if I sound pleased!!
group hug,
Mary

Hi Caz,
I found it too difficult to visit this thread for a while, too many reminders of something, but glad you could pop on and check our Justice of the Peace is around and others too. I know you find things very hard, and you are amazing the way you cope as are many of the people with nasty illnesses who manage to post and cheer others.

Love to all, I too hope Gail will be back, another person I haven't seen post for a while is our Eileen, hope she is ok, I must make contact with her.

love to all and gentle hugs
Lizxxx

Well Caz,if you didn't spend all your time looking out of the window spying on that poor woman walking by...............!

Caz xxxxx

There is no way that any one of us remotely feel you are letting our thread slide by your not posting more often, the fact you still manage to post still amazes me lass, you have my full admiration xxxxxx tis just the nature of things that we all take a back seat from time to time and for varied reasons, me included, so please don't fret my bonnie lassie xxx

I see an overall pattern to our marvellous thread which changes with the seasons, during Spring and Summer our minds turn to new hope and life and the lifting of the heart, to holidays, spending time outdoors and living life to the full, if possible...Autumn and Winter then leads us back towards rest from our journey's, then hibernation.....it is then that this thread of ours comes into it's own and we gather momentum, tis then we turn for comfort to the friends we know so well and who are always there for us...
friends too numerous to mention, I love you all xxx

This is only a short posting Caz but I just had to wish you well, take good care of yourself lass...lu....Joyce xxxxxx

Sharron I'm so glad you are still here, I was dissapointed when I read you and Gail had left, if only Gail would come back to us, I hope she is ok.
I should take my share of the blame for letting our thread slide a bit, I find it so hard sometimes though as all I want to do is sleep. This morning the doctor said I have to have my thyroid tested again and blood test as she thinks I am anaemic, will it never stop.
Went to see hospital doc again on Wednesday and she decided to keep me off chemo for another two week to see if my feet will heal better, they are so sore and purple. I have to go back on it after that but on a lower dose, at least it is keeping the b*****r at bay.
Sharron I have missed reading about your dad, so, he is still up to his old tricks, you would be able to write a book about him, with your humour as well it will be a best seller, lol.

Love and hugs to all
Caz xx