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after reading this site I concider myself lucky that I have never tryed to end it not say that I haven't gone to bed wishing with all my heart not to wake up or thought about it but that was my first bout and Iam never going back there even if it means walking away from everthing or taking pills for the rest of my life. You have to be true to yourself and you have to trust in yourself and thats not always easy

Can I ask for a hug ladies?

Got a lot of family problems that are really pulling me down and today is 10 years to the day since I had the first of three miscarriges in 7 months. It was the week Graeme and I got married.

I feel like screaming to everyone.....just give me a break and someone else deal with everything. OH is away and kids are being a pain.

Sorry to whinge everyone, Its just I know this thread is a safe place.

Im going to the Langdales this week where we buried a little box with momentoes of the babies we lost, one at 9 weeks, one at 13 and a twin at 15 weeks,


Love to you all,


Caz xxx

Oh Caz - how brave you are to come on here - we can take whinging on here but really this is not whinging - it's a cry from the heart, and we are listening honeybun.
That sad journey you are going to take to Langdales - let's hope you get some comfort after - my heart goes out to you, really it does, no wonder you are feeling down. Love and hugs, Ann XXXXX

Thanks so much Ann,

I get bad PMT and everything is harder in the 10 or so days I have it. Im taking the little ones for a walk now as the sun is shining.....going to see Mum and Dad.Teen daughter is giving me big worries, she doesnt realise i nag her cos I need to know shes safe. She just screams' I dont need you'

I have said i will read this thread all the way through for ages, never seem to get time but tonight I'm determined to, hugs to you and everyone,


Caz xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

PS the Langdales is our special place but we have never been back to where we put the box. xxx

Caz hope the walk gave you time to go over your thoughts. You weren't whinging, just telling us how sad you feel today. You could do with some strong arms round you to give you a gentle hug. There ((((XX)))), try my little weak ones for now. Hope when you go to Langdales it will give you peace. Carole xx

In a baby castle just beyond my eye
my baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy,
Who am I to wish him back,
Into this life of strife?
No play on my baby you have eternal life.

At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes my eyes
I'll hear his tiny footsteps come running to my side.
His little hands caress me so tenderly and sweet
I'll breath a prayer and close my eyes
And remember him in my sleep

Now I have a treasure that I rate above all other
I have known true glory - I am still his mother
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Carole that is beautiful, here I am watering the keyboard. One never forgets, Caz we share your sorrow,
{{{{{hugs}}}}}
maxiMary

Caz,
((((hugs)))) for you from me. I hope the trip to the Langdales brought some peace to you. A little poem for you an all others who lost babies before birth.

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I loved you from the start.
Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone,
The world was worthy not of me,
God chose that I move on.


Love
Ann x

what lovely poems!!! here's someone else watering the keyboard now - that along with the singing at the Millenium Stadium for Wales v Scotland - I'm awash now. OH would have been over the moon with Wales - do hope they win today!!

O.M.G..... make me cry before I go off for the evening , why don't you?? ;-0)

Caz and anyone else who is depressed for any reason.... tomorrow is an other day. we will all be a bit better tomorrow.

Good night and I hope you all have a very very good night.

God Bless.
Deanna X

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Thanks ladies, cant read poems just yet, not quite ready but i will when Im on my own, if ever lol as I know Im going to cry,

A wonderful thread and lovely people,


Caz xxxxxxxxxx

Dear Caz,allow yourself to cry, it's absolutely normal, thank God for memories.
Hugs
maxiMary

Coleen, thanks love,


Also thanks for your lovely, touching PM, I will reply.

My hugs coming to you aswell. Eldest son just said to me,' you are quiet Mum' I said do you know why/ He said, is it because of your miscarriages? He realised as my 10th anniversary is coming what was wrong. My big 18 year old gave me a hug, meant a lot,


Are you in the US?


Caz xxx

No,Canada, almost the most southerly point (about 15 mins by car from Niagara Falls)
Come for a visit . . . .
Hugs
Mary

hi everyone can i just ask is it normal to get uncofortable cheast pains when just chillin on here am not havin a anxiaty attack or panicing just keep gettin them coming and going i dont want to waste any docs time as last time he said its part of the anxity attacks elaine

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I'm going to anxiety management lessons next week.


Wish me luck

Twinkle, this is not meant to trivialise your chest pains but do you by any chance suffer with indigestion? Are you taking any medication that can cause indigestion (stress can also of course). just a thought that your pains could be for as simple a cause as that. But if they get worse please do go back to the doctor.

Caz, lovely son you have there.

Malc good luck, let us know how you get on wont you?

Ann
Glos

Hi Twinkle - just popped in and saw your posting. I really don't know much about chest pains other than I used to get them through high cholesterol - all I can say is don't fret about "wasting docs time" - that is what he is there for honey so go and find out -0 if he says it's anxiety attacks explain that you were feeling OK in all other respects and did not feel anxious at the time. On the other hand you could always check with NHS Direct, but on no account stay away from GP cos you think you're wasting his time - you are entitled to his time - see if anyone else comes on and has some ideas. Take care honey, Ann XXXXX

Hello Twinkle - you may be getting anxious without realising it, just by being on here and telling us about the pains. Stress and anxiety work in strange ways and everyone is different.Go back to your doc and have another chat with him - but he could ne right
Take care:o)

There are so many posts on here from so many people that have had to deal with so much. Can l please say, well done to all of you for posting on here and congrats to those who are feeling so much better, those who have job interviews, those who have managed to get to the doctors, those who have managed to get out and do things for themselves - brilliant:o)))
And thanks also to those who responded to my last post.
Son was so much better than l thought when we saw him yesterday and today - had a beautiful time with him and his family:o)))

Purple - my son did'nt start college until 3 yrs ago, quite a triumph each time he went, sometimes he did'nt get there. He finishes this September and he's 32yrs old this yr - so its not too late for your son.
l have looked on the mind web site and printed various bits of info, gave them to son yesterday:o)
Good luck with your counselling - go girl!!!!

Carole - be prepared pics on the way:o))
Ann GG - you are amazing!!
God everyone is amazing on here, this is a very special thread;o))
jude sarf wales :o) xx